stupid things

yup. so promos are over... but whats the difference?.. for all i know, things seem to be piling up even more.... sighs... i really hate it... why pw?! why gp?... and why am i taking a contrasting subject?!!!... not that im gonna spend my life looking at rocks..really... am i gonna be head of some tnc?! why do i have to learn things im never gonna use?... so much for holistic education....

aiya.. im just really worked up now.. so tired. then theres pw. then theres band, h3, chem and geog to sort out, bio and bio o to learn, maths to practice... wheres the holiday?.. its really.. alot of stuff to do. well.. at least results were more or less ok... only maths was satisfying..

bio-73%
chem-59%
geog-62%
maths-67%
gp-40%

well.. still ok. and i hope will be able to get the h3 with this. but well.. not really happy with bio and chem.. failed the essay Q for bio. again!... ah.... then chem... i dun really noe what happened.. prob cos i din focus much on it anyway... tt means lots of stuff to do this "hols". plus h3... need to sort tt out.. i mean.. im not even very sure wads happening in h2 now... soo there lots to doo. though i think its mostly lack of practice.... i think im gonna do lots of bio essays this hols. and lots of chem and maths too.. then give the teachers some stuff to mark.. haha..

sigh... dun really noe wads wrong with me... i dun feel like doing anything at all. all i wanna do is sleep. and talk to ppl.. i dunno... but all i seem to be doing is nothings. and thinking of mab... sigh.. things so diff withoug her.. like. everything changed over nite.. come home, i dun really have anyone to do things with... madeline hasnt been very helpful either... dunno.. the way she does things makes you think tt she just does things for herself.. and well.. i dunno.. everythings just changed... for better or for worse.. i just dun like it.. i wish everyone would just get back to normal... at least it doesnt feel so weird... ahhh... i really wish mab was still here... things would be so much better... home doesnt seem so nice anymore... aiya... i think im just talking rubbish....

but really.. i think i spend qite alot of my free time thinking abt how much i miss her... the rest of the work and stupid things just makes it worse... i hope it ends soon.. i hate things this way...

well, good nite...